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I have my semi annual BP drs visit coming up . last week i had the normal 6 month fasting lab work done.
Every thing came back good except my liver enzymes. Through the roof.
i have had some weight gain and edema in my lower extremities for the last month or so.
started doing some research and find out that it's from alcohol consumption.
I ( we ) have been drinking hard liquor for so long that i never even thought about how much i was drinking. We are both Functioning alcoholics. I fixed my normal solo cup of ice , instead of alcohol i poured water into the cup to the level i usually put the bourbon. Then i strained that into a measuring cup.
Each drink i was making had between 4 and 5 ounces of 80 proof alcohol in it . During the week i would have 4 - 5 of these a night, weekends maybe 5 - 6.
Never drank on the job , didn't start till 4:30 on week days and usually 1 pm on weekends. never missed work because of alcohol . didn't have hangovers. always cooked and ate. Been drinking like this for over 10 years Exact definition of a high functioning alcoholic.
Doc says he doesn't "think" that i have done irreversible damage to my liver yet. But that i was very close.
Sat down and had a heart to heart talk with the wife and explained that i had to quit drinking and that unless she quit too .I was going to die. We had our last drink at 10 PM December 8 2017. Right now it's 8:20 am on DEC 11 2017 and i sit here with the heater on 74 wrapped in a blanket shaking like a leaf. Is this fun ? hell no but it sure beats the alternative.
I will slay this dragon. I AM NOT READY TO DIE !!!
If you are of the faith based community we ask for your prayers and If not just your well wishes and good thoughts.
Thanks, Bob
PS: This is probably the hardest and most sobering and eye opening thing i have ever had to put into words.