saying goodbye

[Keywest18]

i see where alot of people post on here asking for prayers and what not.this post is really just for me to vent and get it out.in a few hours i'll be on the road heading back to mississippi to say goodbye to my grandma.not only is she my only grandarent i have left but she pretty much raised me from the time i was knee high to a grasshopper till i was about 10 and started wanting to hang out with my friends.i remember staying at there house and wakin up early and going fishing (back when i used to say "bobber" and "lulu") lol. my grandma is 80 years old fought cancer twice before and wasnt expected to make it through either of them,but came out the victor and lived her life to the fullest.now 10 years later she's losing the battle.i for one just hope i can be 80 years old and still do what she was able to do. she gets up cooks a big breakfast,gardens in the hot sun all day and takes care of 3 grandkids almost all day.it sucks to think about how i kinda grown apart fro her since moving over here,i used to go to her house (which just so happened to be next door) and eat dinner every sunday with her. i got a phone call earlier from my aunt saying my grandma has been in her room talking to her son sam (who has been dead for 20 years) and believes thats gonna be the one to take her to heaven.... i dont mean for this post to bring any of you guys down. its mainly for me to just vent and get it out. ive had it bottled up for a while now...keep her in your prayers guys